Am I sad? Yes.
Am I nervous? Very.
But, Elsa and I have had a few chats about it. We are both going to put on our big girl pants (well more like a pencil skirt and high heels for me - hello pre-pregnancy clothes for this girl!!!) and embrace the changes ahead.
Rather than dwell on how much I'm going to miss spending my days at home (lots of Momma & Elsa time - sleeping in, wearing yoga pants daily, watching the Today Show) with my little love bug, I've been challenging myself to take a more positive approach to going back to work.
I am grateful that I have a job that allowed me to stay home for over 11 weeks, all of which was paid. I even could have stayed home a little longer, but the timing of a short week and the end of the second quarter made this week make sense and I still have some days left in case of illness or to save up for when we are ready for baby #2 in a couple years (I talked to Elsa about this concept - she was not a fan).
I am grateful Erik can take the rest of this week off and my parents can help out so that the transition back to work is a little easier (ie - for a week I only have to get myself ready and out the door at 7am).
I am grateful we have found a great sitter who is excited to have our little girl in her home and is only a block away from my school.
I am grateful I had a sub that did an amazing job making sense of my chaotic schedule at school and that I have the best co-teachers that I can't wait to work with again.
I am grateful that Spring Break is only two months away.
I am grateful that Summer is four months away and that I will get to be home again, just as Elsa reaches the age of bigger milestones.
But mostly, I am genuinely grateful that I got to spend every single day, practically every hour with our girl - taking in her sweet baby smell, her smiles, her quiet little coos, sharing hours of snuggles and thousands of kisses. Basically, I'm just grateful to be her mom and that doesn't change if I'm at home or work.
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