The day was like any other. Little did I know that by the end of it, two would become three.
I worked slightly later than normal on Friday, fairly confident that today was not the day. I had told others that I thought the day would be Saturday. Carrie kept thinking the day should be RIGHT THIS VERY SECOND DAMN IT.
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Anyway, I called Carrie on the way home and she told me she was on the phone with her sister. I hung up and seconds later realized I had a missed call from her and a voicemail. I listened to the voicemail: "Erik, my water broke, get home." I hit the gas.
Thank you to the Illinois State Police for not patrolling the interstate that day because I assuredly would have deserved a ticket. I rushed home, got Carrie in the car, and rushed back to Bloomington. It was the longest drive of my life.
I know how lucky I am to have such an amazing wife. She's so amazing, she didn't make me wait long to meet our beautiful daughter. She did so very well. I tried my best to remind her of her breathing and to practice our relaxation techniques. I also told her "Good job" so many times that I started to hate the sound of it myself. But Carrie didn't mind, she persevered.
And when the nurse came in, checked Carrie, and said, "Honey, you're ready," my heart began to beat faster than I thought possible. I lied to Carrie, it's true. The doctor was not there and we were trying to stall. I told Carrie the doctor was parking her car, which in hindsight, sounds pretty stupid now. Carrie didn't care. She doesn't even remember it. Until right now of course.
Finally, the doc showed and the most intense, scary, and joyful time of my life began. Movies are stupid. They can't begin to approximate the experience and I can't begin to describe it. So I won't.
Just know that when our daughter entered this world, took her first breath, and was placed in Carrie's arms, I leaned in close and understood what I had always been missing. I'd been waiting my whole life for Elsa Suzanne Golden.
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